What I've Done

10:32pm: moved
http://m-w-o-d.blogspot.com/

5:47pm: been a long tym since i blogged..well i finished my BCS assignment and read-up on OB..nthg much actually..finally rmb my whole class names tho..

oh yeah..smthg happened to mi 2dae..oh well..was pretty dumb..zzzzzzzzzz..i was out cycling..den was busy finding steep slopes to zoom myself dwn..was having fun cuz dere r lots of slopes @ my hse area..

@ 1700 i went speeding dwn a slope..i stood on my bike pedals and gleefully flew dwn..suddenly out of nowhere came a pedestrian..

*curses*

and i obviously veered out of the way thus saving the guy's neck[tho not mine]..my bike went off the pavement and i became superman..sumhow i landed on my big toe on my right foot..1st thought: OUCH! 2nd thought: PAIN!

den dere was dis geyser of blood spurting out of my big toe..an ambulance was called and i was whisked off to changi hospital..damnit..

...

okok im being lame here..but everyting is true except for the beautiful geyser of blood and de ambulance..went hme with bloody toe and slippers..zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..suay..

8:37pm: 2dae woke up @ 600am..zzzzzzzzzzzzz..gilberto grozario wanted us to go his comm skills tutorial but he din turn up cuz hes sick..so relief cher took charge..damn tired..after tt had to w8 for 4 frekin hrs b4 our lecture..lol..went out with edwin,shermin,zhuo hwa,caroline,xinling,joan[hope i got it rite,still trying hard to memorise names]to tampines mall..ate walked went baq tp slack till 3pm..den our economics lecturer is reli strict la..absolutely no toking..zzzzzzzzzzzzzz..quite ok lecture but still tiring..den after tt was BCS..omfg..tink i gna fail cuz i TOTALLY SUCKED at com..weijie i reli nid ur help or im gna faillllllllll[marks based only on coursewrk]..after tt took 23 wanted go tampines mrt but i 4got and took de wrong direction..ended up @ bendermeer b4 alighting and taking 857..zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..

damn tired now and feeling stressed out wit de upcoming BCS assignment..at least tmr lessons start @ 2pm..slp mur..going to peng soon..frm YCK to Tampines..WANT MY LIFE..

*YAWN*

10:35am: woke up @ 830am todae..got a fright as i looked up my tym table..for a split sec 4got wk 1[dis wk] onli got lectures..so means i gg to skool ltr @ 1pm..lecture starts @ 3pm..sian-ed..nthg much to hope..except perhaps not to haf any hmewrk on my 1st day in skool and i dun fall aslp in de lecture theatre..

and so 2day my life as a tp student officially starts..

and so will de stress,hmewrk,burning midnite oil,tiredness etc. set in..

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missing you damn alot..tinking of u everyday..

9:22pm: jus ate my dinner..2nd day of my orientation @ TP..tired mi out TOTALLY..zzzzzzzzzzz..went to bedok reservoir to watch dragon-boat race..oso got dis ang moh lady did wake-boarding[or was it water surfing?]..other dan dis 2 de rest not veh interesting..oh ya we were made to sit in a goddamn track and field stadium tt is so fucking small yet dey tried to squeeze 4 skools in..wtf..nearly suffocated to death..cmon la business itself got 1600 ppl liao still squeeze in whole TP freshmen..zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...nearly died on my 2nd official visit to TP..

got my tym-table too and it TOTALY sucks..1 day end @ 5pm 1 day end @ 6pm..OMFG..den thurs end @ 2pm++..zzzzzzzzzzz..no tm to spend wit my precious baobei leh..=X

oh well i cant get everyting i want in life..sadded..oso made new frens 2dae..got to noe dem betta..mark lyks comics and zhi wei lyks to slack[lol]..adam is tall and nice,jeffrey is a man utd fan..lol..die liao la..im de only liverpool fan in de class..sailin is arsenal fan..lol..still got jonathan hu is oso reli tall..and finally my fren i met on de 1st day,edwin,hu is frm st. gabriels..deres oso dis ger called sofiah[lol] in my class..hahaha..wonder if shes frm ncc too..oso dere is dis ger tt looks extremly lyk kargek..chua tio when i 1st saw her..

yup tts all..

sian-ed..

8:25pm: ok..decided to blog tho im dead beat..cuz juz feel lyk saying sum stuffs[obviously=.=]and oso i decided to change de comments link cuz sum colour blind ppl cant tell navy blue frm black..

anyway 1st day of orientation..goddamned wake up @ 550am..showered took 163 and so sui when i juz changed to bus 8 my stomach pain..was tinking 'great,fuck dis 1st day of orientation'..zzzzzzzzzzz..spent my 1st day in de toilet in TP..kk shant go into tt area..went into de lecture theatre..all de synergy ldars getting super high[sum went crazy] but i juz cant get myself to high..lols..meet edwin frm st. gabriels[same class] and brian frm tampines sec[different class]..edwin is alot lyk me..dun tok much dun lyk to participate much so considered as fren[i tink]..yup..tts all..oh ya still got my name got made fun of 2dae..oh well..kinda pissed and yet i dun giv a damn..weird feeling..lyk wad i told jannson i tink i will onli interact during project wrk and de rest of de tym i will b a goody 2 shoes..went hme release ez-link card turned negative value @ tampines mrt..zzzzzzzzzzzzz..had to get $10 or else cant top up..wtf..can a day stink any worse?!?!oh yeah tmr had to report by 8am..tmd..

still lyk their mass dance while their games were SBS..lost in de cheering competition..oso met sum1 hu is 26 and married in de same course but not same class..looked veh mature and she had make-up on..lol..

well tts all..tmr is last day[gd riddance]..

oh yeah..i now seriously noe how it feels lyk to b in cindy's shoes last mth or so..hais...

SUM1 JUS SHOOT ME DEAD.

-missing 4/3 badly still-

.i suck.

9:30pm: erm..dis is lyk my 2nd entry 2dae..hmmm..cuz wna sae smthg..smthg im ashamed of..well..here goes..

I DUN WANNA GO SKOOL!!!*SOBS*I WAN MY FRENS!!!DUN FORCE MI TO GO!!!*SOBS*

.............................sound lyk a crybaby..
but tts how i feel tho..ites lyk suddenly smack in my face tt i will b moving on..zzzzzzzzzzzzzz..now can truly understand how cindy felt..tym nvr stops..how i wish for it to stop..de class painting,de grad nite,de chalets and de bbq..haix..got a lump in my throat..HAIX..i kip finding myself reminising..HAIX..

GOTTA STOP TINKING OF THAT..STOP!!!MOVE ON ASSHOLE!!!=D











...
juz cant..
oh well..
---Chasing Cars---
if i lie here
if i jus lay here
wld u lie with me
and juz 4get de world


sadness..

12:07pm: nthg to do so decided to blog..tmr is my 1st day of orientation @ tp..hope to make sum new frens..tinking of de 3 hrs total bus ride makes mi sian-ed..zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..gotta wake up @ 6am in de morning..damnit..hope tt my lectures wun b as early or earlier..imagine having a lecture @ 7am..wtf man..means i hab to wake up @ 5++?...and summur my orientation ends @ fri..which means i onli got 2 miserable days[sat and sun] to get my stuffs for skool on monday and i dun feel lyk gg out dis weekend..if dey wan mi to buy a laptop im screwed..parents gna kill mi for needing to spend so much $$$..oready bought mi a goddamn fone..

oh well cant complain since i chose de skool over location..life's still pretty boring..as usual wake up watch tv eat etc etc..

oh if any of u is reading dis i wan de foloing songs so if u hav plz send mi:
What I've Done [Linkin Park]
Keep Ur Hands Of My Girl [Good Charlotte]
Read My Mind [The Killers]
Girlfriend [Avril Lavigne]
I Don't Love U [My Chemical Romance]

*yawn*tink i wil go slp agn..or mabbe watch mtv..
fuck..y dun i hav espn..den i can watch soccer matches de whole damn day..

9:58pm: alrite!got my 1st pic up..lol..wanted to put tt pic in for a looooooooooooooong tym ago..cuz saw in on animal planet den tot quite cute..btw dey r a pack of meerkats..got reflection frm de sunlight behind..oh well..=X

skool starts nxt monday,orientation dis thurs..frm den on is 3 hrs travelling everydae..ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ..stone on de bus..dunno if im looking 4ward to skool..1 hand wna start to learn stuffs..on another hand dunno if can excell[cuz its mostly bout maths and i sucked at it]..and oso dunno if will adapt quickly..

mayb i will juz sit dere and dun tok till my 1st project comes along..zzzzzzzzzzzz..fucked-p..so many emotions and tots..PMS?zzzzzzzzzzzzz..

missing 4/3 all of a sudden agn..

~going bonkers~lalalalalalalalalalala..

9:54pm:

dis is a testing post..lol..learnt how to upload pics 2dae[yaya i noe im a country bumpkin]

10:42am: at 0000hrs of  April 7th
i lost my soul
i lost my heart
i lost myself

im dead

+.+.when i feel de rush of wings at night,i noe tt its tym for mi to die.+.+

10:35am: zzz
long tym nvr blog..cuz my fastest com EXPLODED..goddamn it..now using dis laggy com..zzzz..nthg much to blog anyway..onli de cpu suddenly got one pop sound den i c smoke coming out of de cpu fan dere..zzzzz..chua tio..

weeeeeee..2dae is 05.04.07=our 2 yr anniversary..hahaha..happi tt we made it thru 2 yrs..back all de way frm 05.04.05..XpPp..gg out @ 1++ ltr..

oh ya..yest watched dis criss angel mindfreak show..was damn scary..he brought 6 celebrities to dis dunno wad hotel tt is heavily haunted..dey went to a vacated rm 34..den he summoned a vengeful spirit of a small ger..omg la..de spirit actually overturned a heavy woooden table..it was omfg scary..imagine standing around de table den suddenly it elevate and vibrated damn hard..den suddenly flung to 1 side of de rm..wads worse is tt after tt dey went to dis opera hse ting tt is a branch of de haunted hotel..den dey sat around 1 long wooden table and held hands..criss angel actually wanted to summon de same spirit thru 1 of de celebrities!so dere is dis female celeb tt screamed cuz she felt sumting trying to possess her lidat..its omfg..de spirit did not possess any1 after all but instead appeared rite bside criss angel for a split sec!dey replayed de video and saw 1 white female figure bside him..omg scary man..si beh scary la..

oh anyway liverpool 3-0 psv[gerrard,riise,crouch]song boh..lidat confrm enter semi-finals of champions league liao..3 away goals man..bayern 2-2 milan[bayern->van buyten 2 goals,milan->kaka,pirlo],man utd 1-2 roma[rooney,roma i dunno hu]and chelsea 1-1 valencia[drogba(agn),villa(i tink)]

Champions League 2007:Liverpool Football Club? =PpPpPpPp

12:07pm: zzzzzzzzz
woke up @ 10++..gna post sum stuffs for de past few days..1st..i've got de fone i wanted!!!im so f*****g happy..sony eriksson w850i..finally can get rid of my lousy koyah fone..hahaha..nvr gna trust nokia agn..kip hanging on mi..zzzzzzz..den finally can play DOTA on a lousy LAAAAAAAAG com..basket sia..i got 2 lag coms and a perfect working 1..pian pian jiu shi de 1 tt is perfect cant play DOTA..damnit..kip kena pawned..i luna kip kena by pudge..zzzzzzzz..all bcuz its lag..loaded 147 games 2 my fone..kip playing dem and den 1 by 1 delete de ones i dun lyk..LOL..spent my batt life playing frm 12mn++ to 2am..lol..

heard daniel powter's free loop and bad day on de radio 2dae..recall our class video..hahaha..4/3 will stay in my mind 4ever..perhaps take dis chance to post a few thanks i wna sae..

to miss zaiton:for pushing mi and helping mi in my studies[especially ss] and believing in mi tho my prelim results r crap..

to mrs yeo[chai hoon]:for not giving up on mi tho my physics was a regular f9, resulting in my o lvl's b4[for de 1st tym in 2 yrs]..

to 4/3:for making my last 2 yrs in my sec life interesting

to lionel kong:for helping mi out during our term as ncos[part c ldrs]..u guys shuld stop bullying him..he willingly and straight away help mi out whenever i asked him[even if he's still doing smthg else]he is kind and always dere to help..

to ncos[2005/6]:4 yrs 2gether..nvr 4get de tyms..

to yeoh yuan:always dere for mi no matter wad =D

kinda lame..but still..yep dis r de ppl hu make a huge difference to my life..

11:48am: here im updating my blog..lol..at de request of mr chia songhao i shall do it..lazy ma..okok..nthg much worth toking bout for its still fermenting, rotting, decaying and decomposing @ hme..lol..

well went out of my hse twice i tink..hard to count..lazy to recall..xD

1st went to SATA Woodlands[which is actually a mini hospital]..lets c..i went in @ 1230..waited for my turn to do a urine test[i had to pee on a strip of paper], took my height and weight,took a colour appreciation deficiency test[which yijun din understand wad it meant=PpP] and a blood pressure test..seems lyk fast rite?it is fast but it is de w8ing tt sucked..left de place @ roughly 1530++ which sucked..nb cb 3hrs..wasting my bloody tym..after tt went to buy tonic wtr for poohiex for she hada sore throat[she's feeling much betta]..den went to amkss to find ms zaiton wit cindy p..mostly tok bout de class and de results overall..and yeah pointed THE finger @ sum of de cheeky NCOs lyk kenneth..lol..miss NCC life sia..den went to photocopy many idiotic stuffs for TP..zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..

2nd[yesterdae i tink] went to take passport pics..den went to library..saw tiong peng kai hui rynel jason and gabriel[I TINK-too far cant c properly] frm AJC..so clever sia..haix..read up on wayne rooney's biography..wow cant believe he's still wit his coleen[he went out wit her when he was 13]..tt's almost 7 loooooooooooong years..

oh well can tell frm ed above tt everyting is pretty boring..nthg to write bout..lol..ltr going to get my medical report @ 1530..dey betta not make mi w8..fuckers..zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..

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8:31am: alrite..decided to blog..nthg to do..having a chalet ltr(paiseh jackie pangseh u agn)..will b away fri afternoon, sat and sun morning..dun tink de chalet will be big..is garden terrace 1..got my posting results..leisure and resort management @ tp..few ppl gg dere..yijun, felicia poh, jessic(i tink) and sheryl chua(i tink)..not surprising considering tp is @ tampines..yuan got posted to nyjc whihc is gd..happy for her..she studied lyk crazy..so guai1..hope she reli can get into a gd uni in de future..

SIAN-ED @ hme..and liang plz update ur blog cuz its lyk dunno how many lightyears ago..

hu gg to de amkss family day anyway?

tink i'll go baq to slp..

SSSSSSSSSIIIIIIIIIIAAAAAAAAAAAANNNNNNNNNNNN...................

7:04pm: si bei sian
2dae submitted my application form on9..tink im de only idiot putting temasek poly tourism as first choice tho..dun tink any1 put dwn as 1st choice[too far away]..crapz..

neway saw dis james blunt on tv..invited to a talk show and he performed one song tink is goodbye or smthg..kinda stupid actually.. wanted to cry cuz dunno y will tink of 4/3..did cry afterwards..haix..being stupid..cant believe i'll sae dis..but miss yijun and cindy screams..haix..

here r my 1st 5 choices:
tourism[tp]
tourism[sp]
tourism[np]
leisure[tp]
aviation[tp]

goddamn it..gna spend a bomb on my transport fee if i do go to tp..
kinda sucky day..crap..

still missing 4/3..

screw it..

goddamn..

9:51pm: 9 feb---D Day?
to all 2006 'o' level candidates, gd luck and may u get de results u desire.

tmr get results lo..wna wish all my 4/3 frens, my 6AA old mates and my cousin frm swiss cott. gd luck and i hope all of ur efforts in studying paid off.i hope ur mugging=ur course or skool u wan.

of cuz, i noe alot of u out dere r worried.dun be cuz ur destiny is already decided right now.the papers r marked and de results complied.dun wry so much for it will still not change de results no matter wad.fretting over it will onli depress and is unhealthy aniwae.

wad must come, will come and all we can do is to prepare ourselves to our best extent to receive it when it comes.

best of luck agn.=D

11:25am: stfu
fucked up..sick..might be due to mi shouting myself hoarse @ de natonal stadium on wed..hahaha..nthg to do @ hme..nxt week get result lo..ITE here i come!!!

nthg else to post..sbs..miss 4/3(2006) and NCOs(2005/06)..

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*fucked-up*
listen up woman
if u dunno de truth
shut up
if u dunno my feelings
shut up
if u dunno de reason
shut up
it makes mi laugh to c u
trying to guess
and pretending wad u guess is right
im mocking u
for not even knowing
how u planted de seed of hatred
u made mi hate u
and yet u dunno how u did it

well
stop trying to make mi talk
stop trying to make mi give up
stop trying to make mi sensible
im sure of my senses
im sure y im doing dis
im sure y im being cold
dun take my silence as reluctance
dun take my silence as a truce
dun take my silence as acceptance
for my silence is far frm wad u perceive to be
stop trying
for u will nvr penetrate my shell
for u will nvr bring mi out of dis hatred
dis fury and disgust
so plz shut de fuck up[stfu]
u will nvr succeed

---im wad i lyk and i lyk wad im---

11:36pm: =.=
i look around mi
all tt i c
is a shell
hollowed out
a prison
emotions kept locked away
afraid to show

all i noe
is tt u love
putting words in my mouth
putting up an act
putting wad i hav to sae dwn

all i noe
u backstabbed mi
u nvr knew mi
u nvr understand how i feel

how much i wna sae
matters no mur
for to u
im a loser
pathetic enuff to gather pity
to u
im a gd-for-nthg
a greedy monster
an emotionless puppet

however
i will not fight dis injustice
nor will i spread dis drama
lyk wad u did
all u said of mi
i will rmb
and will not spill

i wan u to noe
de rubbish u spewed
r mere motivation for mi
de misjudgement
r fuel for spite
de injustice
r power to mi
de way u disgust mi
r humour to mi
de way u backstabbed mi
r fresh wounds in my soul

i can b
a monster
a cold being
a shell hollowed out
and above all
i can feel nothing

de mur u grip mi tight
de mur i will slip away
de mur u wan mi to be lyk
de mur i will not
de mur u wan to hurt
de mur i will be numb to everyting

i will rmb dis day
27/01/2007
de day when i was wronged
de day when im lost to u
de day i lost my emotions
for only one person


YOU


and mark my words
i WILL not 4get
and NEITHER will i 4give
for u brought dis on urself
for u sow de seed of hatred
and u WILL reap wad u sow

10:24pm: pardon me
u nabei chee bye kan ni na..
wtf do u wan?
i do dis u fucked up, i do another ting u oso fucked up..
tell mi wad u wan..
its not as if i did not wan to pay by myself..
its not as if i purposely chose to go out wit her..
its not as if i made use of her to buy branded goods..
u nvr get it do u?
fine..
talk to others..
let dem all noe bout wad happens..
stop trying to noe wad im tinking k..
u tink u r rite..
my goddamn ass..
hello use ur brains..
did i sae tt only when u buy branded goods for mi..
den i acknowledge it as love?
stop trying to guess..
right..
im wrong..
im shutting up..
if u wna tink im de one tt is wrong..
jus go ahead!!!
fuck it man..
u r gna c mur dan 10hrs of my face..
i can TOTALLY ignore u..
if u cant stand my coldness..
TOO BAD..
piss off..